When my restless heart

Begins to beat against it confines

I tell myself

Things will be okay

Even though

I don't know

And when my ceaseless mind

Beings to wander

I tell myself

There is nothing to worry about

But the truth 

Is what scares me

And something animal

Knows better

So my heart continues to thump

Believing adrenaline willl be my savior

But what my nervous system doesn't understand

Is that indivduals

Much smarter than I

Have accounted for that reaction

Have created something to overwhelm

My nervous system

And the failsafes

In order to hit straight to the core

To something inside me that I have
Not yet come to understand

In order to take all that I have to give

In order to reap everything I have sown

In order to send me back out once more

I don't know

They do

And that is why I will remain

In my confines

Forevermore

This is my hell

Yours too

Aren't you so happy

To live in a time so refined